i cried last night coz i miss my grandpa.
i thot i was going to be ok after like 2 weeks
but im not okay.

MY HEART IS STILL FREAKIN EMPTY.

omgg i miss you like SIAO.

and and and

im TIRED of life.
coz people just come and go
and some people
who you TRUST SO MUCH
suddenly hurt you.
and obviously
YOU'LL BE AFFECTED
like you were super close to them
and you trusted them
and you listened to
EVERY SINGLE PIECE OF ADVICE they said
and you followed it
and you didnt care if it could be wrong
coz you TRUSTED that person

and now
you feel like a piece of crap.
coz that person decided to leave you out
to make you feel worthless
maybe not directly
but yeah.

SO now.
its hard to trust anybody
i only trust my super super super close friends.
but im still freakin insecure
coz like what if they suddenly leave me
like LAST TIME
but whatever

i trust them
but i trusted THAT PERSON
so i really dont know.
whatever
i still trust them

they mean the world to me.
seriously

so if they break my trust
i'll end up like this
and im still healing
but right now
the people whom im close to
im praying that they wont just leave me

yeah you're friends will hurt you
but im not talking about those petty fights
im talking about those
i-dont-need-you-coz-i-have-the-whole-wide-world-in-my-hands
kind of friends

YOU KNOW WHAT
I DONT NEED YOU TOO.

and and
I TRUSTED YOU
with my whole life.
i still cant believe this.
i still cant.

and i miss crystal
she didnt come to church
for who knows what
i wish she'd tell me but nvm
i understand
im not as sensitive as i was before

i miss you so crys
do you know today i had nobody to sit with
so i had to sit with jen
who was super nice to me
since she saw you all didnt come

OMG I NEED YOU. haiz
and btwim not mad at eu
just freakin missing you.
arghh

and
and
to you.
i just wanted a call.
for goodness sake.
JUST ONE CALL.
nvm
i understand
you dont need me
i need you
right?

about yourself, like duh. :D

i cried last night coz i miss my grandpa.
i thot i was going to be ok after like 2 weeks
but im not okay.

MY HEART IS STILL FREAKIN EMPTY.

omgg i miss you like SIAO.

and and and

im TIRED of life.
coz people just come and go
and some people
who you TRUST SO MUCH
suddenly hurt you.
and obviously
YOU'LL BE AFFECTED
like you were super close to them
and you trusted them
and you listened to
EVERY SINGLE PIECE OF ADVICE they said
and you followed it
and you didnt care if it could be wrong
coz you TRUSTED that person

and now
you feel like a piece of crap.
coz that person decided to leave you out
to make you feel worthless
maybe not directly
but yeah.

SO now.
its hard to trust anybody
i only trust my super super super close friends.
but im still freakin insecure
coz like what if they suddenly leave me
like LAST TIME
but whatever

i trust them
but i trusted THAT PERSON
so i really dont know.
whatever
i still trust them

they mean the world to me.
seriously

so if they break my trust
i'll end up like this
and im still healing
but right now
the people whom im close to
im praying that they wont just leave me

yeah you're friends will hurt you
but im not talking about those petty fights
im talking about those
i-dont-need-you-coz-i-have-the-whole-wide-world-in-my-hands
kind of friends

YOU KNOW WHAT
I DONT NEED YOU TOO.

and and
I TRUSTED YOU
with my whole life.
i still cant believe this.
i still cant.

and i miss crystal
she didnt come to church
for who knows what
i wish she'd tell me but nvm
i understand
im not as sensitive as i was before

i miss you so crys
do you know today i had nobody to sit with
so i had to sit with jen
who was super nice to me
since she saw you all didnt come

OMG I NEED YOU. haiz
and btwim not mad at eu
just freakin missing you.
arghh

and
and
to you.
i just wanted a call.
for goodness sake.
JUST ONE CALL.
nvm
i understand
you dont need me
i need you
right?