Thursday, June 05, 2008 4:44 AM
it's like im fighting demons inside of meit's like i feel like im the so damn ugly and fat
yesterday i just broke down, like i couldn't;t stop crying
it's like i realized how broken my life is
and i have so many wishes so many things i wish would happen
i wish crystal would talk to me, sms me, call me anything i dont care how she communicates with me i just want her to.. to care
i know you care
that;s why im confusing myself when i say it
heys, i know you like cheyenne more than me
it's ok
i spoke to cheyenne about it
and i know it isn't her fault
it isn;t my fault either
sometimes people get sick of other people
and leave them
and dont care about them
the thing is
you;ve hurt me so many times
whenever i think about it, i break down
but then i realise
i didnt do anything
it isnt MY FAULT
it;s yours
coz who your looking at is ME, and if you want me to change, im not going to
the time crystal cheyenne and nicole ignored me
i made/ got closer to 8 friends
annabel
crystal toh
jia le
hillary
eunice
say yian
amanda
xiu wei
thank you for being there
i made/ got closer to 8 friends
annabel
crystal toh
jia le
hillary
eunice
say yian
amanda
xiu wei
thank you for being there
even if anybody cares
im still broken inside
im still fighting
sometimes i think jumping to death is better than living out life's dissapointments and rejections
but then again i realise death is worse
i keep telling myself that im not ugly
but then again, it isnt so easy to believe oneself is it?
im still broken inside
im still fighting
sometimes i think jumping to death is better than living out life's dissapointments and rejections
but then again i realise death is worse
i keep telling myself that im not ugly
but then again, it isnt so easy to believe oneself is it?