ok special mention to rachel
(: she's a nice friend. but sometimes irritating to sit next to for almost all lessons. but still, she's funny and caring. :D

today at church was very boring. i just losing interest in church anymore. the people there.. aren't really friendly. sigh. i don't want to think about it. just that church is suppose to be like family, how can we be like family when they don't bother about some people and leave some people out? not mentioning anyone but it's hard to believe that they care. because sometimes all we ever wanted is to be cared for. i don't want to doubt about God's love. neither do i want to doubt about the people in my church. but sometimes if they want to bond, why don't they invite ALL the people in church rather than a specific age group? i don't even know what to do. i can't be expected to be hyper and friendly to everybody when they don't even want to act friendly to me. sigh but what can i do right? i am not of any importance in church right? i just love to play keyboard and i'm doing it for God. NOT to impress anybody or to make me popular.

anyways, i miss playing the keyboard. believer music program is in the 7TH week already. so it's ending soon. but then i still have advance dynamics 2. and i have presentation next two weeks, so i am really really scared! i haven't even chosen a song yet. tomorrow got chapel band practice. the songs are really outdated, except for one song. and jamie isn't listed on schedule as the same as mines, so i'm quite disappointed. hopefully can same week together ^^

school is fun. just alot alot of gossip here and there. this likes this bla blah blah. but we all know

about yourself, like duh. :D

ok special mention to rachel
(: she's a nice friend. but sometimes irritating to sit next to for almost all lessons. but still, she's funny and caring. :D

today at church was very boring. i just losing interest in church anymore. the people there.. aren't really friendly. sigh. i don't want to think about it. just that church is suppose to be like family, how can we be like family when they don't bother about some people and leave some people out? not mentioning anyone but it's hard to believe that they care. because sometimes all we ever wanted is to be cared for. i don't want to doubt about God's love. neither do i want to doubt about the people in my church. but sometimes if they want to bond, why don't they invite ALL the people in church rather than a specific age group? i don't even know what to do. i can't be expected to be hyper and friendly to everybody when they don't even want to act friendly to me. sigh but what can i do right? i am not of any importance in church right? i just love to play keyboard and i'm doing it for God. NOT to impress anybody or to make me popular.

anyways, i miss playing the keyboard. believer music program is in the 7TH week already. so it's ending soon. but then i still have advance dynamics 2. and i have presentation next two weeks, so i am really really scared! i haven't even chosen a song yet. tomorrow got chapel band practice. the songs are really outdated, except for one song. and jamie isn't listed on schedule as the same as mines, so i'm quite disappointed. hopefully can same week together ^^

school is fun. just alot alot of gossip here and there. this likes this bla blah blah. but we all know